the world falls down today.♥ (:

Hey guys, if you'r still here obviously your antaenas aren't long enought. (:
I've moved back to blogger cos I find it more convenient.
Take care readers!
Byebye blog. :D
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oh this is such a random post cos i have nothing to do.
goodniteZZZ (:

im just going online when im bored or when i want to download stuff to my phone now. it seems rather boring at home since exams are over. and its like holidays after the exams (so iv decided.) and flickr have some really nice pics.! i think maybe ill take up PHOTOGRAPHY
:o

I'm such a bitch sometimes.

ah whatever my hand hurts like crap. its my right hand okay and i can like barely write cos i keep thinking about it and im afraid to lose my hand. how pathetic is that -.-

and what makes you think im angry. you were the one who started this, not me.

just tell me the truth. cos i dont know who to trust anymore.



 

♥

one more paper to go! and two fridays without school yayyyyyyyyy.

if i've only 15 seconds to live in this world, what would you say to me in the 15 seconds?

reply!! i want to know your answer! :)

hai todays events were.. unhappy. i reached school and saw rachel crying (which made me want to cry too! :( )
deary, dont cry anymore for him. its really not worth it. i just wanna see you happy again!

the study date after that was quite fun too. we were laughing till our ribs hurt so much huhhh. haha thanks!
tomorrow theres science remedial too. CHEMISTRY.!!

im trying to be the light of everything. but all i see is darkness around. i cant seem to fix my own problems, cos i have too many..
maybe i just feel unsecured. im surrounded by people whom i dont want to really know anymore.
their faces turn away or they'r diaoing me, or they seem nice to me but call me vulgarities after my back faces them..

im getting alot pf pressure around here especially in school. exams are next week and i really need to mug like shit to get into express. i dont want to drop to acad cos another extra year in school is another extra year of horror. :((((((
ohohohoh im feeling so pissed off now. i want to get a bigger memory card.

ahhh school is breaking me apart.
firstly friendship problems. they piss me off okay.
secondly boy problems. ERASED
thridly EOY exams are nearing. and i need to mug like crazy for science and chinese.
fourthy if my dad doesnt let me read teenage books about romance and stuff then ill have to read Mr Suess -.-

my troubles never stop ending okay.. :(((((((((((((

hey why didn you want to tell anyone about it?
thats all im thinking about.
were you afraid that if anyone found out, we would all disturb you about it?
why do you feel embarrassed about it? its a normal thing right?
its alright if you didn want anyone to know but now that i do, are you afraid?
i dont even think you know that i know about your little secret.
i mean its a natural feeling but you dont have to hide it.
even if _____________________ you.right?
if you know what im talking about, i swear i wont tell anyone.
REALLY. because i know how youll feel about it if i do tell anyone.
but did you have to keep it a secret?

okay i was like super shocked on saturday okay. i was seriously freaked out.
just think like, its a normal day then suddenly this ___________________ is freaking me out.
i was troubled the whole time during dinner. i was feeling EXTREMELY disturbed.
seriously, its something thats not a nessecity to keep as a secret.
someone was bound to find it out sooner or later.
i could even see it with my own eyes that _________________________ you.
but why do you have to hide it? i can see from his eyes that _______________________ you.
but why did you _____________________?!
 

hah. my english paper was yesterday. but i hope my chinese and science will be better still.
im so tired these few days. stuffing all that info in my pinhead size brain.
and i dont have time for shopping anymore, neither have i any moneyyy. ):
i have so many wants but i dont really want them now.
which makes me feel so.. undecided.
uhh.

"Friends forever," you promised
"Together till the end."
We did everything with each other.
You were my best friend.

You were the greatest friend,
You always knew what to say:
You made everything seem better.
As long as we had each other,
Everything would be okay.

But somehow along the line,
We slowly came apart.
I was here, you were there,
It tore a hole in my heart.

Suddenly we were miles apart,
Two different people, with nothing the same.
It was as if we hadn't been friends;
Although we knew deep in our hearts
Neither one of us was to blame.

You had made many new friends
And luckily, so had I
But that didn't change the hurt--
The loss of our friendship made me cry.

As we grow older, things must change
But they don't always have to end.
Even though it is different, now,
You will aways be my friend.



Hello :D the above is for my dearest Cammie Chua who's been a very special person to me.
I love her, that is a fact that no one can change HAHA.

i'm obviously not a problem solver which i cannot do everyday, cheering people up all the time.
but seriously, where has all the time gone to?
where do the days that past us go to? they're history but i still think about it.
yesterday is the past, today is a miracle, and tomorrow is a mystery.
________________________________________________________________________________
wow, i have to admit this september holiday wasn't going like i expected. it's pretty fast actually.
and yesterday i was like, ironing five pieces of my clothings, and taking really long and being careful of my fingers.
(i dont wish to get bubbles on them and burn them alive.)
so it was like 45 minutes, it took me yeah.
and then i headed of to tuition. then when my dad fetched me back, he was like nagging away on where all his money went to, which was electricity bills. he said aircon is a waste of money, so is ironing.
and i was like oh shit, cause i was just ironing for quite a long time earlier on.
so he was babbling and my mind was like 'oh shit oh shit oh shit the bill's gonna explodeee!'
and he told me we shouldn't use the iron for too long, and then i was like sweating okay.
then i just blurted out to him that i was ironing my clothes today, and he was okay with it,
he didn't scold me or anything, but he siad since i dont iron often so,  accpetable. yayy me! (:
okay, it was really hengggg, like phew. first my handphone then this thing about electricity bills.
hahaa. i shall go now, heading to tuition and for my lunch (:
buhbye!!

it seems that my home has turned into a warzone.
they don't talk to me, they don't even wanna hear me out.
they seem to not forgive me already, cause i've done it a thousand times.
i just want them to know, i wish they could hug me.
i really miss them, and i need them in this period now.
if they want to know, i really love them.
sometimes i just feel that they don't love me.
sometimes i ever think if they would want to disown me,
but then why do they still keep holding on.
i know they love me, but i feel that i don't honour them.
it's plainly a disgrace, i'm one to this family.
but i really want to change for them.
i really want them to love me again,
i really want them to forgive me.
i really wish that i could just tell them all this,
and mummy if you're reading my blog.
i just want to tell you i'm truly sorry, i've been sorry since tuesday night.
it's just that whenever i want to apologise again, you just insist to hear me out.
then, when i just want a goodnight from you,
your reaction says that you hate me, you wish you could disown me.
do you know i cry every night, just wanting a hug from you so that i can say sorry?
i really apologise this time, i just want you to know.
I cry every night just wanting to let you know that,
I love you, but you seem to not anymore.
I just want this silent treatment to stop,
it isn't helping espiecially when exams are coming.
Really, have you forgiven me yet?
How long will this carry on?
Till the end of year?
I just wish you can hear me out but you just insist to listen.
I dread every night when you reach home,
having a silent dinner,
no coversations,
no goodnights.
What's worse is that i was closer to you especially at night,
but now that you refuse to talk to me,
how will i carry on?
Forgive me, please.
When will you?

shatter.

i felt rather pissed off last night, its freedom that i want!!

i cant believe how end-year exams are coming so quickly. i need more preparation ^^

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

1. Your ideal mate has a sense of humor and is lively.
2. You always compare yourself with others. You make your wishes too difficult to come true.
3. No effort, no success. That's your attitudes towards success.
4. You love freedom and don't want to get tied down.
5. You are emotional, sincere and optimistic.

http://www.quizbow.com/personality/test36.aspx

You are attracted to a person who gets along well with others. He/she is gentle and kind.

http://www.quizbow.com/personality/test34.aspx

You are generally a calm person. You get excited when your favorite band is in town, when you are going on a date with your partner or when you and your friends are dancing. Your friends mean everything to you. You hate it when the summer is over. You like art, and some poetry. You can throw a party, or help a friend put one together. You usually have no trouble finding dates, but you occasionally hit a dry spell. You like the outdoors, usually, and rainy weather doesn't bother you. You sometimes get jealous of people who are smarter or better looking than you, but you wouldn't hold it against them if you got to know them. You are on good terms with your parents, even though they annoy you once in a while. People tend to think you are reliable and trustworthy. You like animals.

http://www.quizbow.com/personality/test43.aspx


haha this is fun. yayy for september holidays although theres lots of homework to catch up with!

my blog is dead. not many post comments after viewing it which is lame.
OK FINE. thats what i think only. ><
and i miss my piano teacher, dont leave lehhh
sob.

hello hello today is a bright bright day! but i tell you an essay of 1500 words is no joke, and i wrote lesser than that.
ICAS is boring.

I'd Lie - Taylor Swift
I don’t think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He’ll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I’m laughing cause I hope he's wrong
I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs
And..

I could tell you, his favorite color's green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father’s eyes
And if you ask me if I love him,
I’d lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn’t a light go on?
Doesn’t he know I’ve had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don’t let nobody see me wishing he was mine

He stands there then walks away
My god if I could only say
I’m holding every breathe for you...

He’d never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he’s beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle